The greatest gift

Remember when you were a kid and woke up really early to see what presents you had under the tree? The excitement of it all, attacking the wrapping paper like you were on a mission with ferocious intensity to find all the greatest gifts that you toss aside to jump at the next present for?
Now as an adult you get to watch the face of the person you give your gifts to, the light in their eyes, the excitement, the love. Which is the better feeling? some would ask, giving the greatest gift or receiving it?

Well my answer is neither, and both. It is said very often in all the movies and stories about christmas and the christmas spirit but how often do we actually ponder and listen to it? I see that the love behind the gift is the absolute most important part. I have always been the one to "go big or go home" and make or buy the biggest baddest best gift i can find for a person but the last couple of years things have toned down, maybe i have grown up or something. I see that the perfect gift is not something you had to slave over for hours or fight through crowds of insane people to get to but something that simply says "I love you" or "i appreciate you"

The gifts I have kept over the years, the ones I have truly loved and appreciated are not the huge expensive ones but the ones that came with heart, with something that told me that person loves me. I still have cards from my sisters and I have gifts that normally wouldn't mean anything to anyone but because of the thought behind it they mean the world to me.

To me the greatest gifts aren't even the gifts at all but the people that bring that bring them to me.

I love you all, Merry Christmas

2010: against the world

My dear sister, ashes.

There are always a great many memories throughout the years between us, unfortunately this year seems to be a bit short on them. Even if we aren't together very often anymore when we are we are, we are still as close as ever

This year I will take with me memories of concerts, bars, clubs, school, parties, and a whole mess of late nite bad relationship talks(from both sides) Outstanding memories would be the 5FDP show earlier in the year, finally getting you into the bar at area, drinking with you for the first time, the Trapt show, parties at your place, smoking hookah and bullshitting all nite

Ashes, I know that no matter the distance between us, the time apart, you will always be standing behind me when I face the world as I will be for you. I love you dearly my sweet lil sis, Against the world, no matter what

2010: Rebirth

Patrick Chase may be one of my longest lasting friends, but for the past couple of years things havent been to great, that all changed with a phone call in June. That call would change things around amazingly not only our relationship but my life(that is a story for another day)

I am very glad to have such a dedicated person in my life. Patrick has seen the very worst and the very best times of my life. Throughout this year we have shared a great many moments from the photo sessions, bar nites(epic birthday bash!), and TEAM events.

Trick, I am very glad to call myself your friend and very proud to call myself your business partner. You have proven time and again that together we will conquer the world and I look forward to every inch of struggle because I know no matter what the two of us will pull it off or die trying.

Oh and you have amazing THUG AIM

2010: Better than a sneezing panda!

How could I ever go a single year without my best buddy, Daniel Lutu aka Panda?
I don't think that question could be answered, ever since that fateful day back in Ms. Trevino's
third grade class when we met he has been one of my greatest friends.

This year we have had many memories to share one of the biggest being that of finally making good of our 8 year old pact(as in we made the promise when we were 8 not 8 years ago) to see "The hottest band in the world!" KISS. That nite alone will survive in my memory for a very long long time and there is no other person I would have rather shared it with. I told a great many people that the two of us could have fun even if we were stuck in the broom closet backstage at the concert.

The Pow Wow Palace also gave a great many memories, so many times when I was down and needing a friend or even more times when I just wanted to get out and have fun with friends could we sit in the palace listen to some awesome jams and smoke some hookah, learn new smoke tricks, drink, talk about everything from pokemon to how hot the girls from the club were the nite before.

Panda's Friday Night Festivities!- even though so far it has only happened twice they both were amazing times and what will happen next can only be better.

Daniel, you know you are my brother for life, I don't think you hear often enough how much I appreciate you not only for all the great times and parties but for the human being you are. I literally would be a very different person without your support. Thank you for bringing me a lifetime of great memories and I look forward to all the ones to come

2010 Memories- the greatest

One of the best parts of 2010 is the relationship I have built with Ms Ashleigh Morgan. All the adventures, late nite talks, deep thought processing, relationship bullshit, crazy nites of parties and drinks have made her one of the most important people in my life.

Our adventures have been amazing, whether its driving up to park city for me to see a girl, or hiking around the canyons and silver lake it has always been a good time.

The parties, oh the parties! I don't think I have had this much fun going to parties and getting trashed with anyone else. Every time we party it is a new experience and completely wild.

Ashleigh, you are beautiful, wonderful to be around, always willing to help me, crazy to party with, exciting to adventure with, and most of all amazing to talk to. I thank you for bringing light to my dark times of 2010 and I appreciate you so much I don't think words could describe. I do not know where i would be or what I would do without you. I hold you very dear to my heart and I know we will always be close, that makes me very happy, I love you

2010 memories- my main bro

Here begins my year in revue memories list, I am doing it a bit differently this year. Rather than talking about what the best albums, movies, concerts, or whatever else happened and listing them I decided that it would be better if I talked about actual memories that matter, things that have impacted my life in however small a way that should be noted.

I start today with memories from my main bro- jacob hobbs, after all I may not have made it to 2010 without him. New Years day 2010 he literally saved my life and we grew closer as brothers than ever before, even if the circumstances were not the best, I truly fullheartedly appreciate what he did that day.

Probably the biggest memory of 2010 is our trip to Vegas over the summer. Sittin by the pool, Margaritas, flblahblahbluh he is coming my friends!, electrocutions, walking the ENTIRE FUCKING STRIP, the most comfortable beds, the largest arcade I have ever seen in my life, "HUZZAH!!!", and that damn airport security picking on the Asian kid. Thank You hobbs for the best vacation I have had in years

As always the very many shows and brutal late nite parties have been great, As per my promise new years day I have never sunk as low as i did then and have been able to actually remember a lot of these events this year. Shiny driving, late nite mexican food runs, the saltair, bruises, beers, and the sharp realization that we are truly past our prime for the pits but don't really care.

Hobbs, for being my brother, my right hand, one of the very few people i trust completely, saving my life, endangering it on an occasion or two, always being there, the hard parties, the brutal mosh pits, VEGAS, the drinks, the smokes, the unequivocal humor, and most of all for being my best friend I thank you for making my 2010 that much better

300 reasons

1. Your good morning text messages always come with a sense of happiness
2. You have an amazing fashion sense
3. You have a naturally beautiful face
4. your passion for music
5. The love you have for your pets
6. Your hard work
7. your drive to reach your goals
8. the way you don't let me get away with petty things
9. your skills with a camera
10. your admiration of true artwork
11. your fun loving demeaner
12. your light hearted humor
13. your determination for perfection in your art
14. your hardheadedness
15. you always say exactly what needs to be said
16. your never say die demeaner
17. your vehicle savvyness
18. your unwillingness to allow good friends to suffer
19. your hugs
20. your kisses
21. your fascination with underwear
22. your taste in music
23. the books you read
24. the knowledge of worldly subjects you have
25. you always land on your feet eventually
26. you face adversity with a smile
27. you don't care what negativity is thrown at you
28. you believe in yourself
29. you cover every contingency plan
30. your focus, no matter how many things come up you can always come back to the issue at hand
31. your conviction in your decisions
32. your faith
33. the difference you make in my life
34. your ability to listen intently
35. you don't sugercoat your advice
36. you are always willing to help
37. your quirky remarks throughout the day
38. Even when things are at their worst you can manage to see a light somewhere
39. your physical beauty
40. your witty commentary on events
41. You don't hide your true face
42. If you aren't getting what you want, you know where and how to get to it
43. The inspiration you give
44. your strength
45. your warmth
46. your quickness
47. your limberness
48. your spirit
49. your mind
50. the way you make everything feel like its going to be ok
51. the fact that everything is ok after you said it will be
52. How effectively you shoot down infantile responses
53. the way you cut through all the bullshit to get to what really matters
54. your heart
55. your competitive edge
56. your smile
57. Your laugh
58. the way you can sing uncontrollably in your car
59. the way you can control a situation
60. your dirty comments always fit right in
61. your sense of direction/mental road map
62. you have a song quote everyday
63. the way you fit perfectly in my arms
64. you know as much about music as anyone i know
65. you have made every decision worth the risks ive taken
66. you know when to fight
67. when you do fight you make all the right points
68. your forgiving mistakes
69. your courage
70. your openness
71. how easy it is to talk to you
72. you always have something interesting to say
73. you can spice up any time
74. your firm belief system
75. your ability to spot the small things
76. your commitment
77. your love of animals and how you care for them
78. your health
79. your trustworthiness
80. the way you question everything
81. when you look at things you see what nobody else does
82. willingness to go on adventures
83. the way you can take straight shots even though you don't drink often
84. you breathe life into your work
85. you know how to push the right buttons to get the response you want
86. your buttons are not pushed very easily
87. your sexy body
88. your memory
89. you always think about someone else
90. you don't waste time
91. you act when you want to, you don't wait for perfection
92. when you act, it is perfect
93. you don't expect big things, you expect the right things
94. you bring out the best in me
95. you make me feel like more than i thought i could be
96. you don't hold secrets
97. I can talk to you about anything
98. you are honest
99. you are realistic
100. you are trustworthy
101. your devotion
102. when you got knocked down you get right back up
103. your tenderness when it counts
104. when things get tough you know how to respond
105. you treat people with respect
106. your high sense of dignity
107. your sens of respect
108. your fascination with basic pleasures of life
109. your amazement
110. you live in the moment, not in yesterday
111. your humbleness
112. you are a natural leader
113. you are very organized
114. you respect the life you have been given
115. you follow no person, you make your own path
116. you don't wallow in self pity
117. you solve problems effectively
118. you throw down the challenge when you need to
119. you can call bullshit when necassary
120. you eliminate the gray areas that don't matter
121. you keep me on my toes
122. you are adaptable
123. you are flexible(physically)
124. when you make mistakes you own up to it
125. I have never seen you play the victim card
126. you know exactly how to put a smile on someones face
127. you can wipe a smile off a persons face when needed
128. you have stuck with me even if I haven't been the best
129. you hold peoples attention
130. you don't take yourself too seriously
131. your creativity
132. you know how to get wheels turning in a mans mind
133. you now how to get what you want
134. your body reacts in such an amazing way
135. you can play the game better than anyone ive known
136. your spirit
137. you have an outfit for every occasion
138. you always look good
139. you always smell amazing
140. you are incredibly clean
141. when you decide to do something you do it
142. your self expression
143. your inner beauty
144. your relatability
145. you know your image and identity
146. you have a free spirit
147. you don't allow people to walk over you
148. you have patience
149. you prove yourself effectively
150. you show people that things are possible and can be done
151. you persevere
152. you have ingenuity
153. you overcome
154. the struggle never takes you down
155. you are a person who exudes happiness at the best of times
156. in the worst of times you show a shining example of a warrior
157. you allow yourself to have your passions
158. you strive to show the world that you are amazing
159. you show that hard work and dedication are still alive
160. you never let your creativity stop
161. you know what you want
162. you know what you have
163. you show appreciation
164. you apologize when you need to
165. when you laugh you inspire laughter
166. you appreciate the natural things in life
167. you don't stretch yourself to attainable goals
168. you constantly move forward
169. you are not afraid to change course
170. you know how to take care of people
171. you know when to step back and let people take care of themselves
172. you don't have to be asked for a lot of what you give
173. you have the perfect responses
174. you can make a person think with only a few short statements
175. you have personally changed the course of my life
176. you don't expect the fame or or gifts that come with the love you give
177. you know when to put yourself first
178. you are consistent
179. you are compassionate
180. you have vision
181. you come to the defense of people who need you
182. you never question your friends
183. you don't judge people when you give advice
184. you are always straightforward
185. you posses a lot of tact
186. under pressure you still hold to your values
187. you have dreams and aspirations
188. you hold yourself together in the eyes of the world
189. you help hold others together when you need
190. your energy level
191. your youthful exuberance
192. you have a sense of time and schedule and you follow it
193. you have taught me many things
194. you have a tendency to explore
195. you admire new things
196. you don't turn away from change
197. you express yourself
198. you don't need anyone to make your dreams come true, you could do it all on your own if you wished
199. you don't need expensive toys or luxuries
200. you are inrecibly independant
201. you don't allow fear to own you
202. you have a peaceful angelic aura
203. you have a sense of morality
204. you have stuck to what you defined as your duties in life without complaint
205. you are attentive
206. you support decision even when you disagree
207. you are dependable
208. you don't allow pride to control you even though you have great reasons to be proud
209. you aren't easy
210. you are loyal
211. you can come out of hard situations in a better spot than you were in the start
212. you are a great planner
213. you have the ability to fly by the seat of your pants
214. you always act like you know exactly whats going on
215. your athleticism
216. your intelligence
217. you foolishness and how you don't let it get you down
218. you react emotionally and logically
219. you have earned everything you have recieved in life
220. you don't expect bailouts
221. you dont allow setbacks to become failures
222. you sell youself really well
223. you carry yourself well
224. you show a lot of class
225. you have many amazing ideas
226. you inspire a great many ideas
227. you tell it like it is, no bullshit
228. the mystery you bring
229. The surprises you enact
230. You make new things happen
231. you have a lot of exciting ideas
232. you have amazing taste in nearly everything you do
233. You have managed to remain whole throughout your challenges
234. your heart beats big
235. any time spent with you is an experience worthwhile
236. you have interesting conversations
237. you own yourself
238. you have the tools to get what you need in life
239. you move quickly with changes
240. you can always have a good time, even when things are bad
241. your actions are always of interest
242. you are always enjoyable
243. every challenge has been worth the risk with you
244. you have the ability to watch your surroundings
245. you understand the movements and motions of your life
246. you continually test the wings of your heart
247. you continually improve on yourself
248. you progress everything in your life effectively
249. you run freely through your life
250. you inspire a great many smiles every day
251. you take amazing pictures
252. you edit photos extremely well
253. when you make demands, you assure that they are met
254. you set limitations on things in life when needed
255. you put all of your heart into what you do

I know i said it would be more i will further expand when i can